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I started out adult life as a mess!!
I am grateful to say I am now LESS of a mess ;)
There is so much more for me to learn. But I won't keep the lessons to myself. I'm collecting some here to share.
Even though we all start lost, there is HOPE. Not even one human is perfect. We have our flaws. Christians, Catholics, Mormons, Muslims, Wiccans, Agnostics, Atheists, and all the other forms of religion and lack of religion. Most claim to want to be good. To harm none. To live a life that improves the world... But we ALL fail!! None of us can live a life where we don't hurt someone or grieve the land we live in.
What do we do? Can we fix it?
I believe we can work to make it better. I also know that humans have been attempting to improve the quality of life on earth for centuries. However, what happens when we die?
Some respond and say nothing happens when we die. Some say we go to heaven, some say a variation of the two. I ask, does your answer give you peace? Have you felt peace?
What are you filling your mind with?
PEACE or CONFUSION
What difference does it make?
Even though I was raised in the Christian church and knew scripture and loved God ( I thought)... I was not feeling at peace. I had a lot of fear and worries and didn't understand some of the real mysteries of "being saved".
I had seen God work, I saw things happen... but repeatedly I didn't trust He would do it again. Why did He care for me? I don't deserve it. I am a "bad" Christian. I am not walking perfectly. I had huge faults. Most of the time it looked like I was a "good" person, but then I would be medicating myself with alcohol for half the day behind closed doors. Totally a Christian thing to do! Um, NO!
Why did I need to drown my sorrows? Because I was not really trusting in the Lord and His word and what it says. I didn't really understand how the Heavenly Father was sovereign. I had forgotten that He chose me.
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the PEACE of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think on these things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me, put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you."
I prayed, hoped, and then just went on with worry and anxiety. Deep down I felt that I did not deserve God to help me so I pretty much tortured myself. I was not realizing it but that is exactly what God wanted me free from... myself. Jesus did the work on the cross that I could never add to. because everyone falls short that is why we need Jesus. And we don't need Him just once!! It's not a one-and-done deal. His mercies renew every morning AND WE NEED IT!!
God allowed me to torture myself to a point of breaking. I came clean of alcohol in 2017...
But I was still not free of me...
I found new ways to torture myself, worry, and try to control every situation. Guilt ran my life.
God had to really shake me! The final straw was my worst week... 5 days of horrid anxiety, breakdowns, massive pain, vomiting, not eating. Then James read from the Bible over me as I laid half passed out from exhaustion... and peace came.
I still fight, However, I am not alone! Jesus loves me, chose me, and knows I'm a mess. But He never has lifted His pursuit!
We all have our stuff. But I don't care, cause God loves us anyway. My goal is to help people get to a better place than where I found them! It's not me but Christ in me, it is all in God's hands, Jesus already did the saving, and the Holy Spirit does the rest.
I am not a pastor or a spiritual leader. There are better people out there to share this message!
Our family is like every other, we are no strangers to falling short, we are not perfect!! We fail A LOT!
However, we believe you can not wait to be perfect to start the work we are called to do. (no one could ever do good if we had to wait)
We love Jesus and want to spread joy & love. We do our best to follow Jesus and His commands.
We love all people, not just the ones we agree with.
We have empathy for the lives we see who have no peace and are feeling lost, scared, or worried.
My list will be growing, however, I want to primarily focus on these topics.
Educating the next generations
Simple & Peaceful
ITs not about me
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"I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace. In the world, you will have tribulation. But take courage; I have overcome the world!"